Wednesday, October 22, 2008

In a nutshell

"There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness.
When you're high it's tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars, and you follow them until you find better and brighter ones. Shyness goes, the right words and gestures are suddenly there, the power to captivate others a felt certainty. There are interests found in uninteresting people. Sensuality is pervasive and the desire to seduce and be seduced irresistible. Feelings of ease, intensity, power, well-being, financial omnipotence, and euphoria pervade one's marrow.
But, somewhere this changes. The fast ideas are to
o fast, and there are far too many, overwhelming confusion replaces clarity. Memory goes. Humor and absorption on friend's faces are replaced by fear and concern. Everything previously moving with the grain is now against.... you are irritable, angry, frightened, uncontrollable, and emerged totally in the blackest caves of the mind.....medicine to take, resent, forget, take, resent, and forget, but always to take. Credit cards revoked, bounced checks to cover, explanations due at work, apologies to make, friendships gone ordained, a ruined marriage. And always, when will it happen again? Which of my feelings are real? Which of the me's is me? The wild impulsive chaotic, energetic, and crazy one? Or the shy, withdrawn, disparate, suicidal, doomed, and tired one? Probably a bit of both"

-Kay Jamison

Får inte ett skit gjort själv, så jag petar in några favoriter ifrån min personliga favorit
Linda Bergkvist istället.
Det är ingen slump att den här damen leker med dom stora pojkarna i Hollywood numera.
Senast på The Golden Compass vill jag minnas.



2 comments:

Thomas Tvivlaren said...

En jäkla berg- och dalbana du beskriver. Låter tufft som fasen!

Fantastiska bilder! Känner inte till henne sedan tidigare men tack för tipset!

Yrvaken said...

Jovars, även om beskrivningen ovan lutar mer åt manopdepressivitet i mitt tycke, och riktigt fullt så jävligt är det inte i mitt fall.
Samma sport men en lägre division.